It's Christmas eve, after 9pm.  Anne is resting in bed. 

This has been a tough few days since I wrote on Dec 21.  At that time it seemed that Anne was bouncing back ever so slowly.  Since then tho, she hasn't been feeling well, and I have to say I'm worried that she hasn't gotten better for the past day and a half.  She has no energy.  She still has alot of excess fluid weighting on her hips.  The swellling in her ankles has gone down slightly. 

Since starting on the flulid pills late Monday Anne has lost between one and four pounds each day, except for one.  She gained a pound today, so I called to report that to the VNA nurse.  She said I shouldn't be alarmed if Anne doesn't loose weight every day.  She needs to loose about 15 more pounds tho to get back to her normal weight.  I think there must be something else that will help. 

I spoke to the nurse about my fears as far as how Anne's progress has slowed down.  That Anne is exhausted with the slightest activity.  Has alot of belly pain and some nausea, which we continue to try to manage with meds.

I'm concerned with Annes total lack of energy.  Today she came to lay on the bed in the afternoon and did not return to the living room.  Tonight when she got up to get under the covers I helped as usual and asked how she felt, and she said "I feel like that was alot of work". 

Food just isn't appetizing to her anymore.  I'm worried she needs something she's not getting. 

I considered taking Anne into the ER today, and we discussed it, but she didn't want any part of that.  She doesn't think they'll help her.  It's a lousy process anyway, to go in there, spend hours being checked by strange ER doctors, spend hours having to review your life's history with them so that they can take a shot in the dark or admit you into the hospital next business day.  I must say tho that Anne's life history usually scares the crap out of most ER doctors to the point where they don't dare to touch her.

The VNA nurse I spoke with today said the on-call nurse Anne (we know her) will call and come tomorrow.  She'll evaluate Anne and help us to line up any kind of support that Anne is not getting that she needs.  I'm worried that what we're doing for her at home now isn't helping her.  I entertain thoughts that Anne could get better care at the hospital, and that they would be able to help, maybe find something wrong that we don't know about and take care of it. 

Please pray that Anne turns the corner and finds strength tomorrow.  I continue to tell her that this will happen and she will feel better.  She is discouraged today.